Love Conquers All Sins: Table of Contents

 

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Note: This post will continue to be updated as the acts and scenes are posted on my blog. A special thank you goes out to my brother, Tye and anyone who will enjoy reading this play.

Theme Song: I’ll Be There for You/You’re All I Need to Get By

Act I, Prologue: PROLOGUE

Act I, Scene I: Santoria. The palace.

Act I, Scene II: Santoria. The palace library. 

Act I, Scene III: Infierno. The Demon King’s temple.

Act I Scene IV: Infierno. The main hall.

I Just Went Through the Worst Pain I Ever Experienced

Holy macaroni. Long story short, I went to my doctor’s appointment and today will forever mark the day I experienced the worst pain in my 22 years of existence. I was howling in pain during the whole procedure. I dead ass felt like Lawrence Gordon from the first Saw movie after he sawed off his foot. I couldn’t walk normal after it was over. But it wasn’t my foot that was in pain, mind you. I have another appointment this Tuesday so I’m going to have to skip my chemistry class because I find my health and recovery more important than my academics.

During the days before Tuesday, I’m going to do everything I can to make sure I don’t ever have to go through it or anything similar again. I’m not sure if I have a high tolerance for pain or not, but after what happened today, I should have no problem getting a tattoo on any part of my body now. I rate the pain a 10/10, it would be a perfect way to torture someone if you were into that kind of stuff. At least I have anodynes to soothe the pain.

Back on Campus

My dorm room smells familiar lol. I didn’t think I’d be back here while still recovering from my surgery. Speaking of it, I sure hope the swelling goes down soon. Even though I only have to show up to one class in person I’d like to go back to clubs, the gym and grocery store and look for a job asap. Until then I guess I’ll be able to figure out my study schedule and habits.

Surgery Was a Success

Normally, I don’t talk about my health and it’s mostly because I’m a healthy person. The last time I was sick was when I had motion sickness on an airplane in 2009. Other than that, there was the time I had athlete’s foot, but it was my fault for wearing socks when I went to sleep.

While I wouldn’t mind telling you what the operation was about and the procedure, I remember my brother reads my blog too so I don’t want to make him feel any kind of way lol. All I will say is I’m in the recovery phase now and it’s time for me to do my part to make sure it’s 100% successful. I have my appointment next Friday for a checkup, but I go back on campus Sunday so it’s a bit awkward but I’ll work something out.

I’m optimistic everything will turn out fine.

 

Theme Song for Fall Semester

Note: I honestly should pick a theme song for each of my semesters.

My first year at university wasn’t what I would call phenomenal. I passed most of my classes (fuck you trigonometry class and your inhumane math lab hours, that’s why I’m taking the class at a community college), I was healthy for the most part, I learned a few new things, but I don’t have any friends and I remember spending most of my time during the spring semester trying to study, but my grades didn’t reflect it. I’m in no way saying it was bad because I did enjoy myself and I found some new interests I think will help me for this semester and the ones to follow.

I already said I changed majors from biomed to health sciences. For the fall and spring semesters, I’ll be taking most of my classes online so I think they’ll provide leeway for me to study and do other things. I still plan on attending and partaking in the clubs I was a part of (maybe not the pharmacy club lol), but I’ll try to be more outgoing this time around. I’m fine if I were to never make a single friend at my university by the day I graduate, but I do like having a good conversation with strangers nonetheless y’know? I will also try and hopefully get a job when I go back on campus. It’s something I was avoiding because I was so worried about my academics, but like I said before, my studying sure didn’t seem to help my grades and as long as I keep my GPA above a 3.0 I’ll be fine. I won’t lie, I do like making A’s, but I can make some money too. Maybe even having a job will force me to put the time in and organize my studying schedule.

With all that being said and with less than two weeks before I’m back on campus, I hope I can enter and finish the fall semester with a vengeance!

 

Personal Manifesto in the Works

I already have a lot of ideas of what I’m going to write once I finish my play Love Conquers All Sins. It’s my first shot at writing fiction in over a decade so I’m trying to take my time because I want it to be one of my greatest works of all time. It’s shaping up to be one of my favorites. Thanks to writing it, I have thoughts and rough drafts of plot summaries of possible future fictional stories. I’m even making a book filled with a collection of poems I wrote.

Anyway, what I wanted to talk about was my personal manifesto, a personal manifesto is a declaration of someone’s core values and beliefs. One of the most famous examples is The Communist Manifesto (it’s in the name!). I want mine to function as bringing myself to the light. Even though I do it with my blog, this will be the most succinct explanation of who I am if I were to compare it to anything I ever write on here.

The opening sentence of mine reads as such: In order to clarify my position of life, I thought it would be a good idea to lay my philosophy out explicitly”.

It’ll be written in essay format and there are five topics I’d like to go over, but it might be more or less depending on when I actually sit down and write it. I don’t want it to be hundreds of pages long so it’ll be a short book, but I hope I can manage to pack in lots of thought provoking ideas.

I want this to be the most important and truest shit I ever write.

Dream: Burger King with Emilia

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I’d love to share the dreams I have, but for the love of me I can’t recall most of them. I hope I can share more of my dreams because I like dreaming and I always try to find the meaning in mine. It’s one thing I like about myself because I think as people get older, they have more of an apathetic approach to them such as “Meh, it was a dream” and go on with their lives. However, I’m always thinking when I can remember them “What does this dream mean?” or “What is my subconscious trying to tell me?”. Anyway, here’s how my most recent one goes…

I found myself in a Burger King and it’s one of the cleanest places I’ve ever seen in my life. Seriously, the floor was shining so bright it looked freshly mopped, the tables were spotless and even the garbage couldn’t be called dirty if that’s even possible. Bonus points to the Burger King because they were playing T-Pain’s “Buy U A Drank” song. I’m just looking around taking in the scenery when I hear a “Honey, aren’t you going to order something?”.  I look to my side where the voice came from and it’s Emilia from the Re: Zero anime holding my arm. I feel if this was a lucid dream I would be thinking “Are you kidding me?”, but since it wasn’t I accepted this as normal. Seemed like everyone at the fast food joint did too or they didn’t care about her being a half elf and having pointed ears like she’s Zelda.

“I was thinking about getting a Whooper meal and a milk shake” I said.

“Again? I thought you were trying to eat more healthily”.

“No one goes to a fast food restaurant because they want to eat a salad, babe. Anyway, do you want anything?”.

“Hmmmm nothing on the menu looks good…” and as Emilia was about to finish her sentence she gleans at the desserts section and it’s when her eyes light up. “I want that!” as she points at the picture of an apple pie.

“Oh okay” I said, but then I look at the price and it read $59.99. “Fiddy nine ninety-nine!!!?” I yelled in my Mr. Krabs voice.

“What’s wrong?” asked some guy whom I will refer to in this post as “Douche” in a mocking manner. “Can’t buy an apple pie for your girl? What type of man are you?” He then turns his attention toward Emilia, “Hey baby, why don’t you ditch this loser? I’ve been having an off week, but you’re turning me on”.

“I’d rather not, he’s my boyfriend and…”

“Hey, wait a minute. Don’t you dare put your hands on my woman” pushing Douche off of her.

“What are you going to do about it?”

I acted like I was going to walk away, but I turned around and gave Douche a taste of Sweet Chin Music.

“Faggot, don’t you ever in your life disrespect me or my girlfriend ever again!!!”.

“You didn’t have to knock him out. Look, he’s bleeding”.

Turns out his lower front teeth were gone, but I didn’t care. All I was concerned about was that Emilia wasn’t being bothered and ordering our food.

“Uhm, is there anything I can get you, sir?” asked the cashier.

“You bet your ass there is. I’ll have a Whopper meal with a vanilla milk shake and that apple pie that costs $59.99”.

“Actually we’re having a sale today for desserts, so the apple pie is 75% off”.

“Even better! I’ll have two apple pies then!”

“For here or to go?”.

“To go!”.

 

That’s all I can remember from my most recent dream. Maybe Emilia is right, whenever I do go to Burger King I usually order a Whopper despite the fact it’s not the healthiest thing on the planet. Besides, BK brought back their highly demanded Chicken Fries and I have yet to eat them again since they have been in rotation!

10 Things I No Longer Worry About

なるようになるか。

 

Even though I might be happy 24/7 to the point I question if it’s even healthy, there are times where particles of sadness and worry can seemingly come out of nowhere. However, I’m usually able to shift my focus and reset my brain. In doing so, I drop my “problems” from my mind and feel invigorated. I feel like I’m ready to take anything that comes my way. Worrying sucks. Here are some problems I found myself worrying about far too often before I discovered how to refocus. Life is too short to worry about…

 

1. Money

“Fuck bitches, get money”

Unfortunately or fortunately, I have no interest in having sex with most women, hoes or not. Oh, the lyrics were figurative not literal. I remember writing in my journal for my College Success class “money provides opportunities”.  Think about it, you need money for almost everything. You need money to buy groceries, you need money to go to Disney World, you need money to attend university, you need money to travel, etc. People do some strange things for paper and I’ll never understand why. Now, you won’t catch me saying “money doesn’t buy happiness” because people who say that have obviously never bought a puppy. Also, money can get you a jet ski and I have never seen anyone unhappy on a jet ski.

Yes, we do need it. There’s no denying that. And while I have said I want to be rich/a multimillionaire, I don’t allow the dinero to be the source of solving any of my distress. I live my life so I can reflect on the great times I had and don’t worry about spending the few dollars on those Yu-Gi-Oh! cards I really want, I just enjoy it. With that said, I make sure I have some money stashed away for a rainy day.

 

2. Death

It’s bound to happen one day. Sooner or later in my life, I’m going to have to face the inevitability of my death. I can’t stop the Grim Reaper and hiding is only going to impede me from living my life to the fullest. It’s funny really, because I almost died three times (suicide attempt, choking and falling down a high hill), but for some reason, the Grim Reaper must’ve been thinking “Naw I don’t want you yet, you good fam”. People die every day, but the fact I’m still one of the people breathing is pretty rad. I could go to sleep tonight and not wake up to see tomorrow. Even if I do wake up, there is still a chance the place I live could be nuked or a meteor could fall to Earth killing us all. Sure, the chances might be slim, but they’re still there.

I’m not going to lie, whenever the Grim Reaper starts knocking on my door, I’m going to do everything I can to make sure he does everything he can to break the door down. I’m not someone who’s going to accept death with open arms especially at this point in my life when I feel I’m destined for great things. I think I lived a wonderful life so it wouldn’t bother me too much if I were to die, but the one thing going through my head would most likely be “Damn, I thought I had at least 4 more decades”.

 

3. What People Think

“It doesn’t matter what you think!” – The Rock

It took me my sophomore year in high school to finally accomplish not caring what people thought of me. By my senior year I jumped out of the Tornado and started flying on my own ever since. I started living my life as though nobody was there. I started being me, regardless of what my friends, family, the government or the guy on the internet thought about it.

Fitting in is required in certain situations, but it’s not the end-all, be-all for every situation in life. There are times when I need to keep a low profile, but for the most part, unless I’m James Bond, I let loose and have fun, regardless of what people think. It’s my life, I live it, I love it, and I don’t care what anyone thinks of it.

 

4. The Small Stuff

Little things go wrong every day in our lives. I forgot to write my essay, a dollar short for my purchase, tripped and fell on the floor, laughed during a presentation. If I were to consider this a bad day, I’d be archiving my life the wrong way. Instead of getting frustrated by the little things, I focus on the positives. I can still pass the class, the cashier didn’t mind, I’m still able to walk, nobody is going to remember me laughing in six weeks… there are too many great things happening on a day to day basis to worry about the little annoyances.

 

5. Celebrities

I don’t keep tabs on most celebrities because I don’t care what they say or what they’re doing. There are certainly a few I do like such as Chris Tucker and I’m aware of eminent scientists, but what they’re doing doesn’t get me anywhere in life. I might be aware of their existence, but they aren’t of mine. There are plenty more going on in the world outside the lives of celebrities.

 

6. The Past

This was hard for me. Sooner or later I had to let go of my past. Instead of dwelling on it, it’s an important facet to learn from, but I shouldn’t let it get in my way and become a burden. Instead, I look ahead and get that dirt off my shoulders. *Jay-Z voice*

I made errors in my past. Even though I may look at my jewelry wearing, depressed, people pleasing past self with disgust, there’s no need to run from or be ashamed of who I am now or where I came from. I can’t let what happened distract me from my goals and vision. Gotta learn from my mistakes and stand up every time I’m knocked down. The only way I can continue being harmed by something that already happened is if I let it.

 

7. Negative People

People aren’t always going to like what I do. It’s fine as long as they don’t go out of their way to say or do some vitriolic shit (if I didn’t do anything to deserve it, of course) but there are some people who think it’s a good idea and pursue it. Despite this, I have to continue doing what I’m doing. Whether I become a worldwide celebrity and/or a Youtube personality, I’m going to tread on certain toes. See, whether you like my blog or not, I’m still going to make posts until I can’t anymore. If I stopped and stressed out every time someone said something distasteful, I’d never have accomplished anything in life. The fox doesn’t lose sleep over the opinions of sheep.

 

8. Work

While most people want to be rich so they don’t have to work, I want to become rich so I can work more. I call it the “Shane McMahon lifestyle”. I want work to be something desirable, something to look forward to, not because I have to, but I also want the option of “You know what, I don’t want to work anymore for the rest of my life”. If I’m not at work, there’s nothing to worry about. If I’m at work, it’s the time to be more productive. I may not have been crazy about any of the previous jobs I had, but work is a silly thing for me to get grumpy about.

 

9. What Can Go Wrong

I’m not going to Dairy Queen today. I could run out of gas. I could get in an accident. What if there’s a long line (lol)? What if I forget my wallet? Someone might break into my house while I’m gone. I’ll just stay home instead and do nothing about it.

If I didn’t start something because I was scared of all the things that could go wrong, then I would deserve to be unsuccessful, because I can’t be successful if I don’t know how to react when faced with adverse circumstances. No matter how well I make my plans, something can go wrong. Somethings are out of my control. Which are times it’s nice to have a Plan ‘B’ in those scenarios but even Plan ‘B’ could not go as planned.

 

10. Worrying 

It seems weird to worry about worrying, but it happens. It’s normal to worry even though I’m better off not doing it, but when I’m worrying about worrying it’s time to take a step back and breathe.